A whacked out mind set

and other oddities of the world

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The following essay was written by Carlos P. Romulo (1899 - 1985). Numerous awards have been bestowed on Romulo. Among others, he was awarded a Pulitzer Prize in 1942 for International Journalism, the first Asian to receive one. Romulo was the first Asian (and sole Filipino) to become president of the United Nations.

 I am a Filipino — inheritor of a glorious past, hostage to the uncertain future. As such I must prove equal to a two-fold task — the task of meeting my responsibility to the past, and the task of performing my obligation to the future. 

I sprung from a hardy race — child of many generations removed of ancient Malayan pioneers. Across the centuries, the memory comes rushing back to me: of brown-skinned men, putting out to sea in ships that were as frail as their hearts were stout. Over the sea I see them come, borne upon the billowing wave and the whistling wind, carried upon the mighty swell of hope — hope in the free abundance of new land that was to be their home and their children’s forever.

This is the land they sought and found. Every inch of shore that their eyes first set upon, every hill and mountain that beckoned to them with a green and purple invitation, every mile of rolling plain that their view encompassed, every river and lake that promised a plentiful living and the fruitfulness of commerce, is a hollowed spot to me.

By the strength of their hearts and hands, by every right of law, human and divine, this land and all the appurtenances thereof — the black and fertile soil, the seas and lakes and rivers teeming with fish, the forests with their inexhaustible wealth in wild life and timber, the mountains with their bowels swollen with minerals — the whole of this rich and happy land has been, for centuries without number, the land of my fathers. This land I received in trust from them, and in trust will pass it to my children, and so on until the world no more.

I am a Filipino. In my blood runs the immortal seed of heroes — seed that flowered down the centuries in deeds of courage and defiance. In my veins yet pulses the same hot blood that sent Lapulapu to battle against the alien foe that drove Diego Silang and Dagohoy into rebellion against the foreign oppressor.

That seed is immortal. It is the self-same seed that flowered in the heart of Jose Rizal that morning in Bagumbayan when a volley of shots put an end to all that was mortal of him and made his spirit deathless forever; the same that flowered in the hearts of Bonifacio in Balintawak, of Gergorio del Pilar at Tirad Pass, of Antonio Luna at Calumpit; that bloomed in flowers of frustration in the sad heart of Emilio Aguinaldo at Palanan, and yet burst fourth royally again in the proud heart of Manuel L. Quezon when he stood at last on the threshold of ancient Malacañang Palace, in the symbolic act of possession and racial vindication.

The seed I bear within me is an immortal seed. It is the mark of my manhood, the symbol of dignity as a human being. Like the seeds that were once buried in the tomb of Tutankhamen many thousand years ago, it shall grow and flower and bear fruit again. It is the insigne of my race, and my generation is but a stage in the unending search of my people for freedom and happiness.

I am a Filipino, child of the marriage of the East and the West. The East, with its languor and mysticism, its passivity and endurance, was my mother; my sire was the West that came thundering across the seas with the Cross and Sword and the Machine. I am of the East, an eager participant in its spirit , and in its struggles for liberation from the imperialist yoke. But I know also that the East must awake from its centuried sleep, shake off the lethargy that has bound its limbs, and start moving where destiny awaits.

For I, too, am of the West, and the vigorous peoples of the West have destroyed forever the peace and quiet that once were ours. I can no longer live being apart from those whose world now trembles to the roar of bomb and cannon shot. I cannot say of a matter of universal life and death, of freedom and slavery for all mankind, that it concerns me not. For no man and no nation is an island, but a part of the main, there is no longer any East and West — only individuals and nations making those momentous which are the hinges upon which history resolves.

At the vanguard of progress in this part of the world I stand — a forlorn figure in the eyes of some, but not one defeated and lost. For through the thick, interlacing branches of habit and custom above me I have seen the light of the sun, and I know that it is good. I have seen the light of justice and equality and freedom, my heart has been lifted by the vision of democracy, and I shall not rest until my land and my people shall have been blessed by these, beyond the power of any man or nation to subvert or destroy.

I am a Filipino, and this is my inheritance. What pledge shall I give that I may prove worthy of my inheritance? I shall give the pledge that has come ringing down the corridors of the centuries, and it shall be compounded of the joyous cries of my Malayan forebears when they first saw the contours of this land loom before their eyes, of the battle cries that have resounded in every field of combat from Mactan to Tirad pass, of the voices of my people when they sing:

"Land of the Morning,
Child of the sun returning …
Ne’er shall invaders
Trample thy sacred shore."

Out of the lush green of these seven thousand isles, out of the heartstrings of sixteen million people all vibrating to one song, I shall weave the mighty fabric of my pledge. Out of the songs of the farmers at sunrise when they go to labor in the fields; out of the sweat of the hard-bitten pioneers in Mal-ig and Koronadal; out of the silent endurance of stevedores at the piers and the ominous grumbling of peasants in Pampangga; out of the first cries of babies newly born and the lullabies that mothers sing; out of the crashing of gears and the whine of turbines in the factories; out of the crunch of ploughs upturning the earth; out of the limitless patience of teachers in the classrooms and doctors in the clinics; out of the tramp of soldiers marching, I shall make the pattern of my pledge:

“I am a Filipino born of freedom, and I shall not rest until freedom shall have been added unto my inheritance — for myself and my children’s children — forever.”



A Note on Small Voices
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A film that follows the struggles of a young woman, as she teaches her students more than the average classroom lectures amidst corrupt school officials, guerrilla war dangers and apathetic parents, Munting Tinig refreshingly deviates from many western influences but manages to lose some of its sophistication.

Melinda, fresh out o collage, is sent to Malawig Elementary School in her first teaching assignment. Because the school is in a village where many of the students and their families live in fear and poverty, most students skip class in order to help their parents tend to the crops, all the while keeping a weary eye of the conflict between the military and NPA insurgents past the village borders. This situation has affected the youth’s views of aspiration, education, justice and women. Melinda challenges these views, earning her more than a stern look from her colleagues and superior. She enters her students into a choral competition hosted by the main school, ushering most parent’s anger and frustrations. Only Luz, mother of brothers Popoy and Obet, keeps an open mind to the idea. But tragedy strikes when the young Popoy is killed mere days before the competition. Melinda begins to doubt her decisions until her students’ singing cheers her up. They garnered a tie for first place and in the end; Melinda leaves to be with her mother in the U.S.

Directed by Gil M. Portes, Munting Tinig offers a simple and sincere insight into a culture rarely depicted on film. The poverty the residents of the town of Malawig suffer from is highlighted by the situation, or more so, by the challenges Melinda encounters upon her arrival: the school principal sells ice candy to the students simply to stuff her own pockets, an Indian merchant charges 10 percent for cash advances on delayed teacher's paychecks, and apathetic parents believe that only the rich can afford to dream, insisting that their sons and daughters would do better to work the fields or provide domestic help rather than to secure an education.

The initial conflict introduced is man vs. society. This somehow changes to man vs. man as Melinda enters her students in a regional choral competition.

 In a more melodramatic take on things, Melinda goes off to convince both the parents and the school officials to allow her and her “choir” to compete. She, of course, garners their approval after a few arguments, some help and a lot of unknowns. The next few scenes were somewhat predictable, like Mrs. Pantalan’s eventual helping hand and Popoy’s untimely death. On a side note, it is not Melinda (who I expected) but her students that give heart and encouragement to continue the competition. This is one of the refreshing sequences of the movie; something different from the don't-give-up and we'll-do-this-in-his-memory talks. In its place, the children sang their competition piece to Melinda.

The production is quite raw and unpolished. The grainy cinematography was upsetting but in conjured a sort of “ruralness” to the setting.  This quality brought about a simple-ness and sincerity to the movie. It had the effect of an old documentary showing the realities of rural life.

However, the slightly erratic editing lost the impact of some of the scenes. Many of the mournful sequences lost their touch. And the background music was often times abruptly cut leaving me at a loss.

Alessandra de Rossi played Melinda in a satisfactory performance. She introduced the naïve and sympathetic teacher wonderfully, but lacked conviction on playing the “idealistic young lady” in her confrontation with the principal, Mrs. Pantalan, as well as the “distressed girl” as she shares her feeling with Chayong, Pilar’s mother. Her flute playing was also unconvincing.

The children in this movie, played mostly by veritable unknowns, churned up good performances without overacting or resorting to the cute-kid bag of acting tricks. Amy Austria and Gina Alajar did justice to their motherly roles whereas Dexter Doria was a riot in portraying the enterprising and disillusioned officer-in-chief of the school.

The issues the film tackles come straight out of the characters’ mouths. "Only the rich can afford to dream," a parent admonishes her child in one scene. “A woman only marries and bares babies…”, as said by another. Women and Education were often viewed as secondary.

The flaws of the Philippine public school system were also made painfully obvious; one teacher atrociously murders the English language every time she opens her mouth (and she teaches English, of course), while another demands that her students do her house chores as part of their "extra-curricular activities." Lastly the film is set amidst an ongoing guerilla war. The threat of danger became a normal part of everyday life.

In the end, "Mga Munting Tinig" turned out not to be pumped-up melodrama or an inspirational tearjerker. It became a film that gives a matter-of-fact look at poverty in the countryside and the kind of self-defeating culture it has created.

The movie may have achieved to bring about its message of hope, if not for the town, then for the children in their efforts to reach their dreams, but it does not loiter in that area. Its simple straightforward story may have lost many of the western styled melodramatic effects but it did not bring a touching closure. The movie, as I presume, was constructed to show emotion, not evoke it.

 

 


The Feature Article
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Christian Korea in the Philippines

Twice every week, a simple narrow three story building hosts a mass of people somewhat disproportionate to its size in worship to the Lord. These people, all of whom are migrants, were able to establish their own religious community within the suburbs of Makati. This community, after finally gaining permission for construction from the Barangay office, has only recently built their own church.

            The Korean Methodologist Church of Manila is located along Gen. Luna Street in Makati City. The entrance, crammed between a flower shop and a busy restaurant, can easily be hidden behind numerous flora to its right and rumbling motors parking to its left. The building’s existence was hardly known. It, in fact, didn’t exist at all and remained an empty lot for a good fourteen years since the church community formally established itself in 1989. Permission for construction was secured in 2003, and the first Service was celebrated at the new premises on November 28, 2005.

            A routine Worship Service occurs twice a week, every Wednesday and Saturday at 7:30pm. The main hall of the building, where these Services are held, looks like it’s ready for a mini concert. A podium, where head-Pastor Jung Haejun is known to talk very conversationally to a throng of people, is set at the corner of a wide stage. Amplifiers, instruments and wires litter the floor in an array of color, incorporating both traditional and contemporary worship styles with the full support of audio-visual technology.

            The choir starts the celebration with the singing of the introit. It is a prelude intended to help the congregation focus and leave worries (or “worldly thinking”) behind.  Within the next two hours, a Call to Worship begins the actual worship experience, headed by the pastor, through prayers and scriptural reading (mostly from Psalms). The congregation, lead by a band, sing hymns in praise of God. Church activities and reminders are announced just before the pastor delivers his sermon. As the offering is presented to God, the congregation stands and sings a traditional doxology, a song of praise. A benediction and final blessings are given in turn by the pastor and the participants to each other. A postlude is then sung, officially ending the Service. But the celebrants will usually mingle about, set up tables and then dine all together with the pastor and church ministry.

            It is in these services that newly arrived individuals are introduced to a whole population of their countrymen. Student migrants, who are away from their friends and families, find peers with the same situation with whom they can relate. Asst. pastor Hung Yohan is the person in charge of the youth bible study sessions and knows most of the students personally.  “The youth come here to learn English so they can study in the U.S.” says Pastor Hung “Many of the youth don’t believe in Jesus when they come here from Korea. Having something to believe in helps them cope in living without those familiar to them.” It’s not only the youth; those looking out for jobs may as well meet some of their future associates, whether in business or other fields. “Some of them become husband and wife, you know…married!” Hung adds with a smile. Most of the other migrants are retirees attracted to the Philippines for its low living expenses and hospitability. “The retired people… they are a lot, yes. And they are very active in worship.” Religion seems to have found a new meaning to the ‘unemployed’.

            It is Korean inhabitants of Makati who attend Worship Service twice a week in their humble Building along General Luna Street. They are the population that makes up the church’s number. They become neighbors, friends and family to each other. A strong sense of community is built as they congregate together to listen to and learn from the scriptures. 

One of the teachings pastor Jung talks about in his preaches is relationship; how the love of God is always linked with love of neighbor. Hung Yohan also said about their beliefs: “Our lives should bear the fruits of the Holy Spirit. We must show the evidence that we believe in God, through bible studies and prayer.” One should note how such words can inspirer a whole community with the spirit of generosity and good relations. These words are part of the benediction, the challenge to each and every member of the congregation.

A reflection the community makes of these challenges can be witnessed in the Ministry Updates. A good part of the announcements made during Service is about a charity project the church runs with Barangay 286 in Manila. Every two weeks they would donate a supply of milk for children below the age of three. One of the other actions given credit to the congregation is the call to support for missionaries. As the world’s second largest missionary sending nation, a number of missionaries would stop by for temporary lodging before they set out for the provinces of abroad.

In total, these services don’t just support the spiritual growth of these people, but inspire them to transform their prayer life into their actions as well.

 

 


Application Essay to the Ateneo
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            My life has been a topsy-turvy of sorts, bordering at the edge of normality. It would have gone as any person would suspect of a quiet lass seated beside the window. One considered it none too peculiar but, for most, is quite uncommon to the average high-schooler her age.

                        Alas, I recall that our teacher once asked who among us, at this age, is preparing for motherhood. The class simultaneously replied ‘none’ but I found myself mouthing a silent ‘me’ amongst the chorus. It was true for the most part. Though I am not deliberately preparing myself…it just so happened that I had been face-to-face with one of the most exciting phases of motherhood for several times now, rearing. I was born the eldest among thirteen cousins. The years would pass by as I watch them one-by-one come into this world. By the age of eight, I was already the ate of five overly hyper (impish) kids. The responsibilities of having to chase after them, feed them, and sometimes change their dirty diapers have been with me for as long as I can remember. It was a tiring and dirty job but I won’t have it any other way. How ever grimy or disoriented they all become, they never cease to bring a smile upon my face, even if it meant a lot of scolding and scrubbing afterwards. All of my experiences with them have taught me patience, tolerance and the ability to cope with almost any given situation.

                        Again, normality cannot describe the events of my life even as I entered school. Middle school, for the matter, was as chaotic as it could get. With friends falling in and out of place, and the batch getting a name for them selves…our selves, this would have to be the most challenging and, in some part, the lowest point of my life.

                        I was, what my friends would now call, a dead kid back then. My days were spent wandering around the campus alone or sometimes making the library my little abode. At home, I would either be with our neighbor playing games on the street or being idle, daydreaming, and waiting for the rest of the family to come back. I grew distant with my family. I’d hardly talk to them event if I was given the chance. Though I learned to take responsibility of the house and become more independent, as I was usually left home alone. I lost the motivation and confidence I once had. I became fickle in my interest, drifting from hobbies and sports, not knowing what I really want. My academics suffered the most. And to think I was only ten back then.

                        But life has a way of berating you senseless when you least expected it. Change came in an unexpected twist thundering down upon my gloomy world. The revolution could have come in many different forms, tangible or experiential. Chance had it arrive with a simple ‘hello’ from a short girl from the other class. I wouldn’t call her the saving light or the sign of hope I was pretty much in need of, yet it was a change I’d forever be grateful for. The said girl got tired of my timid-ness and decided to lash out. Reverse psychology can work wonders. There were no encouragements, step-by-step guidance, or pep talks to be given.  I was shoved into a crowd of teasing and insults, forever to pester me until I learned how not to be affected, how to stand on my own, and how to retaliate… intelligently. But that didn’t come until after I snapped and shouted back at her. I learned to emit fury but witty comebacks were not yet my thing. So I’d get angry either because of her gibes or her lack of humility (call me childish but it infuriated me to see how proud she was), while she’d fume ‘cause I was a snob and lack proper verbal skills. This led to the confusion of all during my last two years in elementary. They would see two friends turn into bitter enemies in a blink of an eye and back again within the next few days. The questions were all too familiar; they’d say, “Isn’t she your best friend?”, “Again? But I thought you two made up last week?” or, “What is it about now..?” It was the ultimate love-hate relationship. It ended sour when we graduated without a word to each other.

                        It was a strange occurrence stepping into first year. I was classmates with ‘her’ again, but this time it was different. This time we were civil. There were no shouting matches in the corridors, no hate mail, no senseless arguments that resulted to foul language and then tears. I just came up to her on the first day and said ‘hi’. We kicked off from there on. I can’t believe we were finally able to act like proper friends…best friends. Though I must admit, the arguments never did cease. We just weren’t offended with all the taunting and mockery anymore. It all came back down on a playful level. Up ‘til now, I still can’t believe how she managed to break me out of my shell. She helped me rediscover my dreams. With her, I found a new love in literature. Also, I was able to promise myself to do my best in facing everything with confidence.

                        As I look back on our friendship, I can’t help but find how bizarre my experience with her was. True friends all have to clash at one point in order to truly understand each other. I can’t help but describe ours as an all out war. And even though we wasted almost two years fighting, I was taught a lot not only about her but also about myself.


EN11: First Major Essay
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Fad for the Fantasy Nerds?

            First, there were his Oxford colleagues. Then there came the bookworms who had the 15 dollars to afford the three hard bound covers. And finally, when the paperback version came out, hence were summoned the hoards of fantasy nerds along with their mellyn.  Such has been the following to an unsuspecting (presumably dead) author: to have what he has written for personal pleasure, be found in forums, debates, scholarly writings and literary texts. Recent adaptations have led his words to a new and younger generation who has brought the renewed exploration and the search for comprehension for his accomplishments to other forms of media, preferably the worldwide web.

These adaptations have also brought complete strangers into the once closely knit community of devoted LotR fans. Among these ‘new recruits’, the ability to speak elvish has gained a wide interest. People who have only seen the movies immediately dived into the books for more of the language (intellectual indulgence aside). In came the fangirls who wanted to know what those hot/attractive/sexy elves were saying. Off went the fanboys who wanted to sound cool like that sword wielding bearded guy.

            The elvish language may very well be Tolkien’s most thought of and organized work. The intricate tongue of his most popular creatures was his very first linguistic project (and also the backdrop for his first and last book, the Silmarillion). The speech is also the most commonly used among his other texts.

            However, despite its popularity, the language of the elves is incomplete. Due to its poetic nature, its vocabulary is limited and hence cannot be used as a conversational language. What’s more, in nearly every occasion that Tolkien sets about to compose in one of his invented languages, it results to a flurry of new ideas; changes and revisions that may or may not be fixed.

This lack of unity and a good solid foundation for the learning of the dialect has not, as one might easily think, hindered the attractiveness of its melodious speech and artful script. It is also, in fact, the poetic nature of elvish that has brought its unparalleled magnetism in present society.

The language, through the years, has, is, and still will attract all those who fall into its beautiful and enchanting spell.

 


St. Bridget
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            High school was a small world. You tend to know everyone in a population of less than 3000. Gossip runs abound along echoing corridors. News quickly spreads to unsuspecting ears. Lesbian relationships will forever be abundant as in all ‘exclusive girls-school’.

 

            High school happens to be situated along Aurora Boulevard, corner Katipunan Avenue. It’s that second home one usually shares with an average of 49 other siblings and a wonderfully harassed parent. It is where one will grow up to be a fine young lass ready for the hustle and bustle of commuting within the metro. It is where timely friends are made; where innocence first discovered the meaning of “uto-uto!”, and the vengeance that would come after; where you learn that teachers are indeed people (and that they go malling as well, so watch out); where life opened its doors to the many choices such adolescents will have to make.

 

High school will forever be a blur. Four years of lessons, projects, gimmicks and heartaches seem so long ago when, in fact, the experience ended a mere three months prior. One hardly remembers any of the gory details. And yet, one can’t simply forget how each classmate, each friend made you feel. Memory can never do justice to precision; emotions can always spark the life to reminiscing.

 

            To me, high school will always be my own; unlike to what my parents perceive it to be; unlike to what my brother has recently been introduced to. Its that cozy island just off the coast, easily visible but rarely visited. It has been my family, my escape… my difference.


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Pain is merely an illusion of touch


Something more to passion
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Delivered on April 15, 2000

University of the Philippines

College of Arts and Letters

Joseph Nathan Cruz's Valedictory Speech

 

Undersecretary Rosario Manalo, Dean Josefina Agravante, esteemed faculty, dear parents, fellow graduates, good evening.

 

Let me begin by saying that my mother is a domestic helper. In other people's homes she cooks, does the laundry, cleans the bathroom, and takes care of the infants. She put me through school doing that kind of work because that was the only thing she could do. She never finished high school, never enjoyed bourgeois luxuries. And later tonight, we'll be going home to our hovel in a squatter area in Taytay, Rizal dubbed Coco Village because most of the houses are made of cheap, coco lumber. And yet, few of my classmates know that. Most are comfortable with their neat picture of the world. Comfortable with cute, little concerns in the university like projects and papers, reports, boyfriends and girlfriends, torn hymen, cheap thrills in the lagoon, concerts, cell phones, night lives.

 

And in this age that flaunts globalization and the advance of technology, we are led to believe more and more that we have entered an age of solidarity, unity, an age where there is inter-connection in a global village that continues to spawn genuine development for all mankind. Indirectly, it leads us to a complacency supported by the lie that the world is all right. After all, we feel all right. The pain and suffering exist somewhere out there among a few insignificant people. I have walked among you. But lost in anonymity, I am assumed to be no different from anyone even by some of my friends. When I was a freshman, a close friend of mine enjoyed lambasting the squatters, the jologs, for their bad behavior, their bad smell, their propensity for breeding baby after baby whom they cannot support. My friend did not realize that I was from that background. He did not realize that I grew up watching my friends die of sickness, or get pregnant too early, or get injured or killed in petty street wars, or go to jail, or resign themselves to the typical, monotonous lifestyle of the poor. And the assumption that everything is all right grows with the lie that we are more or less the same, that we are united, that the dawning new world order has started to bring the sought-after solidarity. But the right approach to true solidarity and unity is not one that denies difference, denies the pain of the oppressed just because it is not beautiful, or as our country's President says, "It is too depressing." The right approach is to expose the truth, highlight the difference and work for its remedy.

 

For as long as there are poor people, Moros discriminated against, oppressed women, abused children, and multitudes of other categories consigned to the margins because they threaten the image of unity and stability that feeds the established status quo, there can be no true solidarity. But the creativity of the artist, the magic of their potent images, the words of the men and women of letters--these have the power to transform, the power to wake our people from the stupor that gives them dreams that are lies. Power to destroy myths and create a world that is beautiful and true. Of course, the arts and letters can be used the other way. The way that sells out, aids corruption, subverts the potentiality of what is good. But will you?

 

As graduates we are in a phase that continues to taunt us with the question, "Who do you sell your brains to?" It is easy to be complacent. To believe the lies. But we shouldn't. We owe it to our teachers who taught us patiently despite the low salary, our parents who worked so hard for us, and to our people whose blood and sweat built this institution and continue to put us through school. We owe it to them to become the prophets of this age that will preach the true gospel of solidarity. Only then can we all be truly one in a world where it would make perfect sense to celebrate the fact--squatter ako, katulong ang nanay ko--and we are proud because, and not in spite of, the fact.

 

I'm sure all of us have issues about which we keep silent because of the power of the lies. This is the day to be free. I call on you--fellow scholars and artists, unite!

 


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